Excruciating Agony: My Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Deborah Andrews
Deborah Andrews

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